Since the first time I’ve ever come here, I’m actually looking forward to going home. I can deal with this house but the frenzied behavior of its occupants I can do without. I like Marilyn and Mike but the constant interruptions when trying to talk with either of them have worn on me. That plus the fact that Marilyn in particular is clearly trying to control everything and everyone she can rather than deal with herself.
I’m not saying I haven’t had an enjoyable time here because that’s not exactly true. “I have!” However, the small things I’ve been noticing here are starting to worry me. Marilyn is going to be Mike’s undoing if she doesn’t pull herself together and her attitude towards herself is going to fuel her ultimate destruction before long.
It’s not my problem. I don’t have to deal with it all should I choose. But at the same time, as a human being with preternatural gifts or not, “It’s hard to watch some days.”
This house clearly has a guardian of the property I’ve dubbed Mat Flip after what it did Friday night in Marilyn’s bedroom bathroom. It paid me a visit at 2:35 AM yesterday morning and I drove it off with a blast of fury from within myself that was probably overkill. But I needed to establish some boundaries to let it know, “I am in command of my gifts.”
Mat flip came back for a visit this morning, waiting until I settled into a meditative state before doing so. She took the form of a healthy woman around my age with long curly black hair. Think big hair here. With that and her dark complexion she was quite a beauty to behold. I sensed that she was dark because she spent a lot of time outside. “She wasn’t black.”
I never got a name from her or why she’s here. I did get the sense though that she simply wanted to let Marilyn know she was here. “Nothing more.”
This morning, I perceived that Mat Flip engaged with me as assertively as she did yesterday, perhaps anticipating that I would disregard my heightened awareness of her, similar to Marilyn’s approach. However, Mat Flip does not pose a threat and ultimately contributed to a sense of tranquility by the conclusion of the meditation session.
Despite having only slept for approximately two hours since last night and remaining awake since 1:47 AM, I continue to feel well. “Thanks Mat Flip!”
I need to get more work done on Dad’s site so he can sell his Camaro. I also need to get the new charger for Marilyn’s laptop to see if that resolves the problem of it not working. I also need to get letters in the mail so I can locate a law firm before I actually need it. “I can do all of this!”
As far as my gift goes, I really need to do a better job constantly testing things. I know I need to put at least an hour between sessions with ESP Trainer if I want to hit a score of at least 11 out of 24 within three to five games. My brain needs time to recover. “There’s nothing wrong with that!”