Diary Of a Blind Man.


Monday, October 28, 2024: 4:51 PM: I spent the better part of today running through various guided meditation material I have in MP3 Audio format. I realized something with a bit of help from Bernie S. Siegel, M.D., and track one of his Mediations for Peace of Mind Album. I don’t remember where I got the album from, but immediately realized why it’s been so very long since I last listened to it. While the audio is passible, the sound quality isn’t all that great when compared to other meditation MP3 files I have at my disposal. This time around though, for whatever reason, “I muddled my way through the 30-minute mono recorded track anyway!”

Like all meditations I’ve come across, Bernie Siegel has a lot of guided imagery in his meditations, which seems a bit disjointed to me at times. I don’t know if that’s by design or simply because it was a longer script that was consolidated for whatever reason.

However, something he said in his script caught my attention and clicked in my brain. Dr. Siegel mentioned that the imagery he was using didn’t have to be, “Seen!”

He encouraged people who are clairaudient or clairsentient to run with those forms of imagination/visualization if they are not able to work in the domain of clairvoyant type imagery. Not everyone sees things clearly all the time in pictures, “Including a blind guy like me.”

My dreams and visions are often a combination of the five senses, sight usually being the weakest of those five for obvious reasons. “It’s been a long time since I could actually see in reality!”

So, naturally, for me, letting sounds begin the formation of a picture is the best route to take. However, being a Silva Grad, I’ve fallen into the trap of trying to force pictures during guided meditations when I can’t really remember what the color violet or indigo looks like, just as an example. So, “What to do?”

It seems to go back to what I’ve already written about in the past. I need to use sounds to help me generate the kinds of environments I wish to focus on in guided meditations. So, putting together a guided meditation for financial health could involve recording the next time I get paid, depositing money in the bank, or being asked to do another job involving computers plus other tech stuff. If I’m understanding things right, listening to and immersing yourself in those memories as deeply as possible while at Center can have an interesting effect on one’s environment going forward.

Giving the background sounds and or music in many guided meditations my full attention while scripts are running in the foreground may also have a productive influence. I began to suspect something was up every time I got a high score with ESP Trainer because it usually coincides with my thoughts drifting away from the game and onto a possible resolution to a situation or obstacle. “That’s not a coincidence!”

This phenomenon tells me two things. Firstly, attempting to force intuition through over focusing on a specific thing has the opposite effect of what you want. The other is that if you can let your attention split between two different things going on in your mind simultaneously, intuition will kick in automatically with regard to one or both of the items at the forefront of the good old processer upstairs.

Part of what has driven me to this conclusion is the fact that I never noticed the background noise in Hans DeJong’s Silva Long Relaxation Exercise in the twenty plus years that I’ve had it in my possession. As soon as I noticed it, I began to ask myself, “Why now?” Then I noticed that I wasn’t dropping off to sleep during Hans DeJong’s recording like I was when listening to the other guided meditation Silva recordings I had from Ed Bernd Jr. or Dennis Higgins and John LaTourrette. I think it has a lot to do with the extra background traffic noise I can hear in Hans DeJong’s recording, which is not present in the other material presented by Ed Bernd, or Dennis Higgins and John LaTourrette. To me, “This is a clue!”

Where scripts of my own creation are present in guided meditation, I’ve also noticed that if I focus on experiencing the ocean sound I hear as I would in reality, I get very close to sleep, but don’t actually fall asleep, which is what I want. But, if I attempt to repeat the words spoken in the meditation track in my head and ignore the ocean, “I drop right off!”

So, maybe nature is my friend in meditation, particularly where Wellness is concerned but also with regard to Reality Creation? While a script is being read, maybe it’s enough to listen to and totally focus on the sounds of a beach, nature, sex soundscapes, bank or other financial exchange taking place, totally immersing myself in that experience while scripted words if present simply wash over me?

Maybe this is all about feelings? The pleasure of joy sex brings, the piece felt near water, and the serenity of being in a forest; can the emotions that come up with those kinds of experiences and many more be the key to reshaping my reality? “I’m going to have to play with this one to find out!”