Brian Schnabel's Head Space
Where Magick and Mind Digitally Interlace.
New Year Reflections: Family, Wellness, and Literary Influences
Thursday, January 1, 2026: 10:35 AM: Reflection and Release: Well… Here I am on the first day of 2026, pondering things I should do going forward. I know getting a lawyer isn’t going to be a real possibility at this point. I know my dad is nothing short of a bullshit artist and user who’s dumb enough to think I should believe his lies. I know a large majority of my family sees me as Dad does, “A commodity.”
Of course, I’ll be told that I don’t know what I’m talking about if I confront anyone about their behavior. But some sort of confrontation is in order, especially where Dad is concerned. How to go about it though. “That’s the real question.”
I will figure this out. I will figure out all of it.
I’m glad that Ellen’s trip to the hospital the other day worked out. I’m not sure that I’m buying her assessment of the situation regarding the dangerously low blood pressure drop which prompted that little excursion to the ER. But it’s her call as to how she’s going to handle things. “At least she went to the ER without too much of a fight.”
Personally, I’ve never made the connection between bronchitis and blood pressure around 75 over 46. But I’ve never had bronchitis, or any of the other medical issues that Ellen has. “It’s in God’s hands.”
I’m looking forward to going over to Ellen and Jen’s this afternoon. It should be a relatively quiet affair with maybe some pizza or something for a late lunch or early dinner. “That all works for me.”
Over the past few days, I’ve figured out what the inappropriate visions involving adolescent girls are all about. “Anne Rice books in my Audible Library.”
So, now that I understand why I’m having creepy visions like that, I can act accordingly. Basically, what it comes down to is, the visions are my inner witch’s not so polite way of directing me to finish reading a book series or suggesting that I read an Anne Rice books series again. Anyone who has ever read an Anne Rice book may guess as to why I’ve made the link between these creepy little sex dreams and Ms. Rice’s material.
Sometimes the stories we immerse ourselves in can influence our environment. Just like the authors who write these stories can influence their own environment by doing so. “It’s a manifestation thing.”
In the case of my inner witch pushing me to read or reread certain material again, I can only assume that there’s a methodology to the madness of it all. Perhaps reading certain material change’s the energy I radiate in a manner that helps attract certain positive changes into my environment that are “legally” beneficial to me? Based on what I know of manifestation techniques thus far, “I can see where a fictional work can substitute for a really long incantation.”
I’ve been using dreams and other impressions I wake from sleep with to direct my communications with Dad and other people of late. “It’s been working well.”
I’m also seeing indicators of a large sum of money heading my way, too. Given the source of information, this is only a strong possibility in the eighty-percentile range but, “Hopefully it’s connected with a job and not an inheritance.”
Upon waking this morning, I suspect too that there’s going to be a possible encounter involving surveillance of me by an unknown entity once again. Eventually, I will find out who these people are that are doing this and why. But, for now, “I’ll just settle for having fun letting them know they’ve been made once again.”
The vision involving a boot cam secretly attached to a plane by the military was interesting. The fact of it being attached to a plane owned by the military by high-ranking commanding officers in the military leads me to believe that maybe I’m being surveilled by a government entity after all. “I think I know why, too.”
In other news, I found out from Dad, someone in Colorado posed as a buyer of his Camaro in an effort to scam him. This game supposedly involved a certified check and is now in the hands of the FBI. I think it’s kind of funny, given Dad’s own activities during 2025. “I wonder if he’ll take the universal hint?”
Also, upon waking up this morning, I seemed to be getting an answer to my contemplation of late regarding moving my office space back into the living room again. Based on what I saw in the vision, it would seem that there’s an advantage to working on creative projects while facing south, or at least in a southerly direction. I’m not completely sold on that one though. So, “We shall see.”
I’ve also wrapped up on a project that makes Brian Schnabel’s Head Space a website catering to Sussex County NJ residents only. Everything online has been blocked from visiting the site that isn’t a Google or Bing bot and IP ranges from the Sussex County area. This is going to be interesting.
I’m going to be keeping a close eye on the server records to make sure I’m not blocking folks in the area. I’m also aware that traffic from outside of the area will be able to access the site given the size of some networks that serve this region. “It’s all good.”
It will be interesting to see what happens, given the GEO specific nature of the tech that Google and Bing are using for indexing and ranking websites. If my suspicions are correct, I’m going to be receiving traffic in the near future from folks who are one hell of a lot closer to my home, “Which is exactly what I want.”
Saturday, January 3, 2026: 9:28 AM: Visions and Dreams: The only major vision I had of late was the other day and involved me lighting candles with my mind. I made them flair up like torches using my mind and moving my hands in an upward fashion while thinking, “Rise! Grow taller!”
To me this vision kind of symbolizes what I already know to be true for myself. Mind can manipulate matter or energy in an environment. To what extent though?
In all honesty, I have no idea. I do know this, I highly doubt it will be anything as dramatic as what I saw in the dream.
It’s probably a good thing the candles (two red sticks on either side of a tall red pillar candle) were sitting on the hearth of an old fashion fireplace. Otherwise, the dream would probably have turned into a nightmare about burning down the house.
Saturday, January 3, 2026: 8:27 PM: Reflection and Release: This evening’s conversation with Copilot helped me refine how I should be handling my journaling, intuitive work, and weekly structure. I realized that while my record-keeping is strong, I tend to write with more detail than I actually need for daily entries, which can lead to over-focusing. The takeaway is that I can keep using the framework I already have but shift toward summarizing each category in a short paragraph of two to four sentences, five at most, instead of writing full pages.
We talked about creating a weekly rhythm by assigning certain types of tasks to specific days, which should help keep my mind from juggling too many domains at once.
I clarified that I don’t need to analyze every dream or vision in depth. The ones that unclearly signal something pending or require interpretation can still get full attention, but the rest only need brief notes about their meaning unless something is unclear. This way I don’t get weighted down by the cinematography of their source. As a part of this, we covered how to track intuition in general without letting it dominate my life by capturing impressions quickly and reviewing them during a dedicated daily window.
Finally, I confirmed that journaling doesn’t need to be long or daily to be effective; short, focused entries are better for mental clarity and prevent rumination.
We also talked about the negative impact prolonged meditations are clearly having on my energy level and sleep cycles. Unless I need to work on something specific, it became clear from my chat with Copilot that I am overdoing it. I need to cut back on my topic focused meditations, and keep them to around 30 minutes a day, maximum.
Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”