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Blind Author’s Personal Journal: Dreams, iPhone Mail Issues, and Spiritual Growth in the Sussex, NJ Area

Sunday, February 1, 2026: 6:59 PM: This morning I woke thinking I was hearing someone ringing my doorbell like mad around 8:29 AM: I also thought I heard something like a fire alarm going off in the basement of building 2. But, when my reason caught up with my senses, I realized I was dreaming at least part of it. Did someone really ring my doorbell? “That’s a good question!”

I’m simply going to chalk it all up to my brain simply reacting to the fact that I had slept late but also figure that I was being given a warning of an unannounced visitation. That’s the possibility, anyway.

However, someone in Germany was on my site this morning, them having come off the Bing search engine at 7:21 AM eastern, which could have been the trigger for the loud wakeup call, too. It’s hard to say. “Was Dad’s pal paying me a visit from there?”

I did finally get around at 10:00 AM this morning. I Normally get up at 5:00 AM but ended up going to sleep at that time, instead.

I decided to reread the Celestine Prophecy and summarize the insights for my journal. I may actually write it up as a book summary or something along those lines at a future date. But for now, “It’s just for me.”

When I went to email my M4A audio notes from my iPhone (IOS 26.2.1), that is when I realized something was very wrong. My iCloud account wasn’t acting right, me having recently uninstalled a default account I had been using to communicate with folks and installed the profile for using cPanel’s generated configuration file to accomplish.

I didn’t get the calendar access the cPanel directions said I could. However, the email being on my phone served its purpose for me for a while. “Then I recently uninstalled it and got a surprise.”

Now, I have no iPhone Mail app on my phone because the damn thing refused to revert back to using my iCloud address as the default. The lesson here is that if you need to install an email account on your digital device using methods that are outside of the norm, “It just isn’t worth it!”

I probably should have known there was going to be a problem when I saw it had installed the account as a profile in the VPN area of IOS 26.2.1 with only half the functionality advertised. “Now I do know.”

I attempted every trick in the book to resolve the problem but to no avail. So, I’ll simply access iCloud storage on my Windows 11 PC where I do most of my writing when I want the files and grab my iCloud emails, which are mostly advertisements connected to apps on my phone anyway, through Outlook Classic. Besides, “Email is really a PC or desktop computer thing.”

Beyond that, things are good. I’ve paused my Audible account until May 1st and will get my website caught up with January’s entries come Wednesday.

Tuesday, February 3, 2026: 10:53 AM: I’m not sure who the 34-year-old was that I drove to ecstasy in my vision yesterday morning, but I think I get the message there. I can be led to be with such a woman if I simply set my intentions to find such a person who is in “need” of such pleasure for healing.

This morning’s vision about Marilyn’s dog refusing to stay when told to was also telling. At first, I thought the vision was expressing some kind of warning that The Big Guy was displeased with me given my level of irritation in the vision. But, as I drifted in a state of agitation trying to grasp the full meaning of what I was shown, it was indicated to me that the only reason I was presented with this was because it would impact me in some way. I think I know what that is but will continue as planned in my preparation for my trip with Marilyn and Michael in the event things shift again.

I’ve gotten most of my financial stuff done and PNC did send me a new card that now needs to be updated. I’m Using one card for in person and over the phone transactions, the other for everything online, and the PNC one for Bluetooth type payments. I think this will be a better plan than the one I was originally working with. But we shall see.

I need to live. I’m not really doing that. My intention is to thrive rather than survive. I’m clearly hardwired to do that at this point in my life, the awakening that some have indicated over the years having finally taken place.

There is so much running through my head these days, it isn’t funny. But the sense of calm I woke with this morning is the sensation I need to remember and carry with me throughout the day. “We will get there.”

Tuesday, February 3, 2026: 10:34 PM: I’m finally done screwing around with banking stuff. This Read and Research Tuesday has more or less been an extension of yesterday. I want to get the stuff together for Mike Murphy so I can get my taxes done next. But I’m thinking the weather is going to put a crimp in that plan and I have quite a bit of work to do tomorrow, AKA Programming Wednesday.

I’ve got a client’s machine that needs the KB5078127 update installed. My server is telling me that WordPress 6.9 is now out of date, and I need to update Brian Schnabel’s Head Space content. The Head Space stuff should have been done Sunday but…

I did recall two other visions as I worked today. The first one involved me driving a young woman wild in bed who had lost a lot of weight due to cancer. The second involved my kitchen sink half full of water due to a bunch of canned vegetables clogging the drain. The visions were quick flashes but I’m pretty sure I get the meaning of both.

I’m clearly onto something in my understanding of the first. The second seemed to simply be an advisement to back off processed foods.

I did get a half hour of spin in today before the walk to Hayek’s Market for more fruit. So, tomorrow, maybe we only spin for ten minutes instead of thirty? That seems like a logical plan.

Thursday, February 5, 2026: 10:53 AM: I woke for a while this morning, kicking things off at 6:00 AM. For the next two and a half hours I reread the Eleventh Insight while thoughts of the situation with Marilyn and Michael kept running through my head. Something is clearly going on over in their neck of the woods, Marilyn having started to break down on the phone with me yesterday morning when I had called at 7:20 AM to ask her to restart the machine as it wasn’t allowing Remote Desktop even though it was connected with the router.

So, when I settled down to run a meditation, I did the only thing I could do based on what I was sensing. I asked for help and protection. When the sensation came over me that promised the kind of sleep that would deliver strong visions, I yielded.

What came out of these visions was clear enough. In them I was successfully killing stink bugs in my shower, received a blessing, and was informed by the Seeing Eye that I was receiving my new dog and being sent home all in the same day because they had complete faith in my abilities. This tells me that the situation going forward is in hand and I don’t need to do anything other than just proceed with business as usual. “I cannot do anything for them and will not be negatively impacted by whatever is going on.”

Will we be making this trip next week to the Great American Outdoors Show in Harrisburg? It’s likely but not definite. Weather could present an issue, or someone could end up getting sick. I’m looking forward to going and the indications from the visions are that, regardless of what happens with that trip and general situation, it will all be for the best. “I can live with that.”

Will I be hearing anything more from the Seeing Eye? With the way they’ve been sending emails requesting donations, that’s just a given. I doubt it will be anything more personalized than that. It’s like I was never a graduate of the school at all since the end of the COVID-19 Pandemic. But maybe I will hear from a trainer or something. John Markey’s name surfaced so perhaps we’ll be crossing paths in the near future.

It would seem that I did sleep for two hours. But, given the imagery, “It was worth it.”

I’m killing time with the housework this morning as I want to do laundry today. I’m just not big on the idea of freezing my ass off while I do it. So, I’ll focus on that after lunch. After I’m done writing here, I will clean the bathroom and catch a shower first. There won’t be any point in running a vacuum until the laundry is done because of the trips back and forth to the laundry room. I’m not sure what kind of rock salt Goldberg Realty Assoc bought for the complex this year, but it is tacky as hell and sticks to everything. After the loose stuff is vacuumed up, “Windex takes care of the rest nicely!”

I decided not to spin yesterday and may only do it for twenty minutes today. It all depends on how I feel. WordPress has updated to 6.9.1 and it looks like Jetpack is up to 15.5. I watched Ellen’s website update to Jetpack 15.5 Beta before going to 15.5 a few hours later. If there are any problems as a result, they’ll be quite manageable as I’ll be downloading the Sunday, February 1st backups from the server tomorrow.

Friday, February 6, 2026: 11:07 AM: I woke this morning around 6:03 AM again and got things started. I’m expecting a call from my cousin Stacey (spelled her name correctly with the E this time) over the course of the next few days. I’m also expecting an update to IOS 26.2.1 over the course of the next few days as well.

Where is my expectation for all of this coming from? Well… As I woke, I recalled a vision that indicated such things were a strong possibility so I’m simply going to mark it all down as One and Done.

Of course, there’s a possibility that the update could be coming from Vispero for JAWS. That will more than likely happen soon, too, them usually updating the screen reader about once a month. And… Yeah… Apple seems to be on the same track with IOS, so I’m thinking the vision was simply a reminder as to the fact that it’s about that time where JAWS for Windows and IOS 26.2.1 is concerned. The main point is I should be expecting a call from my cousin, soon. I’m going to begin working on the stuff to go to Mike Murphy’s tomorrow and deliver it to his office on Wednesday. Of course, if the trip to Pennsylvania is cancelled, I’ll be able to do it sooner. But… “We shall see.”

I found out from Marilyn yesterday when I called that the roof on her house is leaking. Apparently, this was noticed sometime around Tuesday or Wednesday. Michael has been working to get the excess snow off the roof with a snow rake. However, it’s difficult because of the ice buildup. It’s going to take some time to rectify that situation.

Friday, February 6, 2026: 3:21 PM: I just got off the phone with Marilyn. She called to let me know she got the tickets for the Great Outdoor Show online, as I had suggested earlier today via phone call. “Dropping off tax stuff will have to wait until Wednesday.”

I did a second hour and a half long meditation this afternoon. Nothing really came out of it other than the fact that I now feel more focused, which is a beautiful thing because I’ve got work to do. After all, “It is Back Posting Friday!”

The first meditation this morning brought me here. And… Yeah… Journaling does help to get my mind working the right way on things. I just wish I knew why sometimes I can write out a whole page in minutes and other times it takes an hour. “That’s crazy!”

Friday, February 6, 2026: 8:20 PM: I got as far as breaking down the journal entries for the week of Sunday, November 16, 2025, into seven pages. I sensed that it would simply be best to do it that way, each page representing one day, the week combined covering nearly twelve pages in total. I did a lot of writing that week.

I did take some time to spin this morning, which helped kill off a lot of nervous energy. I did a lot of reading today, too, now down to about three hours’ worth of material to cover in James Redfield’s last book of the Celestine Prophecy series.

This last book in particular irritates me. I’m not totally sure why that is. Perhaps it has to do with the idea that a human being’s extra gifts are all spiritual in nature and I’m intuitively aware that’s a distortion of the truth? “The writing feels fanatical.”

Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”