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Week of February 22, 2026, Personal Journal Entries: Blindness, Intuition, and Daily Life Management

Sunday, February 22, 2026: 9:20 PM: Today I realized that trying to clean up message threads or chats with my iPhone in Copilot isn't the best approach. The program ended up assigning incorrect titles to a few items, and as a result, I accidentally deleted conversations and chats that I actually wanted to keep. This included a chat I had intended to save from earlier this evening.

Sunday, February 22, 2026: 9:26 PM: Today I didn’t accomplish much in terms of converting this past week’s journal entries for posting on Brian Schnabel’s Headspace. Instead, I spent the afternoon focused on tasks like developing a psychological profile, which Copilot now retains in its long-term memory. Alongside that, I started outlining a sort of personal operator’s manual, something that details how I function. My intention with this is to have a resource I can easily share with others, whether that’s a potential partner, a coworker, or a client, to give them a clearer understanding of how to best interact and work with me.

Beyond that, the evening felt pretty disorganized. I did get to spend an hour and a half on the phone with my nephew after he returned my call from earlier in the day, which I always appreciate and value.

So, even though I’m writing this on my phone and it’s after 9 PM, I’m not particularly bothered by it. “I don’t care!”

Sunday, February 22, 2026: 9:37 PM: Tonight, I realized that using Copilot on my iPhone becomes a lot more manageable when I connect a keyboard. Dictation on the device actually works pretty well, it’s easy to use and doesn’t require much mental effort. The only real challenge I’ve noticed is double-checking what Copilot reflects back to me after I finish taking notes. The way the program scrolls makes it a bit difficult at times for no rhyme or reason.

Sunday, February 22, 2026: 9:49 PM: This morning, I experienced a vision that suggested there’s a chance I’ll encounter someone soon, a person who’s comfortable taking a defensive stance, but who, even when given the opportunity, wouldn’t choose to play offensively either for themselves or for a team. Interestingly, this individual wouldn’t object to me stepping up and making moves to score, whether it’s for myself or for a group.

Thinking about it through the lens of relationships, it feels like there’s a slight to moderate possibility I may meet a young woman who, even when presented with opportunities, wouldn’t advocate for her own success or advancement, but would be perfectly fine with me taking initiative and making efforts to achieve goals, possibly in the form of a union with her. “Think bedroom activity here.”

Sunday, February 22, 2026: 9:56 PM: in the early morning hours long before dawn, I found myself awake and experiencing a steady stream of mental imagery, various individuals came to mind, and I chose to mentally engage with those who appeared in my thoughts. Among these, an encounter of a highly intimate nature was considered.

I mention this specifically because it may have served as the catalyst for a vision I had today. Today’s vision centered once again around the use of a football on a basketball court, a recurring theme in my reflections lately, blending elements from different sports and possibly symbolizing unique dynamics or interactions in my life.

Monday, February 23, 2026: 7:49 AM: I trust my intuition. Other’s chaos is not my own. I’m grounded in the natural. I’m one with the divine. This is the affirmation statement that came to me as a loop while I was lying in bed, listening to plows go by… My thoughts racing… My mind teaming with pictures… Not even listening to nature sounds for three hours straight really helped to curb things until this affirmation came along.

Monday, February 23, 2026: 10:13 AM: This morning, I experienced a vision that reinforced my confidence in the affirmation I composed earlier today. The vision felt like confirmation that I’m moving in the right direction with my approach. This particular affirmation seems to establish a sense of universal protection when I need it most and serves as a reliable, overarching statement I can default to, especially during moments when my mind resists settling down or when I find myself dealing with racing thoughts.

Monday, February 23, 2026: 12:44 PM: I am tweaking the affirmation I wrote about earlier. It is now as follows: I trust my intuition. Others' chaos is not mine. I'm grounded in what's natural. To myself I am kind.

The adjustment came to me in the shower, and I think I actually did fall asleep working that variation at one point this morning. It feels better to use it this way, especially when I state it out loud.

Monday, February 23, 2026: 7:12 PM: Today, I finally managed to sort through the inbox basket on my desk, which had been piling up for a while. I also handled all my banking tasks, which gives me some peace of mind heading into the week. On a practical note, it seems like I'll be able to find a good deal on a portable charger for my phone, possibly one with magnetic capabilities. Arrangements for my upcoming blood test are nearly set; I anticipate scheduling the appointment tomorrow and hope to have it completed sometime next week.

I'm planning to power down the computer for the evening and spend some time reading, using my Echo Dot in the kitchen with headphones for an immersive experience. Later, I intend to participate in a Bible study for individuals who are blind at 8:00 PM, followed by some breathing exercises before heading to bed. That's the plan for tonight.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026: 4:51 AM: I’ve decided to use Robin Sharma’s The 5 AM Club as a stand-in for a personal mentor, and to supplement that with Robert Greene’s Mastery. As I revisit these books repeatedly, I can’t help but question whether the authors genuinely expect anyone to implement every single principle they propose. It feels overwhelming at times, almost as if following either book to the letter would be an enormous undertaking. Still, I notice that each time I go through the material, something new stands out that actually feels manageable and realistic to integrate into my own life.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026: 5:10 AM: I woke at 1:14 AM this morning and simply did breathing exercises while gently drifting in and out of sleep until 3:56 AM… Did the usual engaging with people who drifted through my mind's eye… Nothing notable coming out of it… My inner witch actively guiding me through this process… Every time I started to play with another affirmation other than the one that came to me yesterday my inner guidance seemed to be saying, "Over complicating things!"

However, when I ran the statement, "I trust my intuition," visualizing the Moon, Mars, Earth, and Sun from a distance in space… "Others' chaos is not mine," allowing the images of problematic people to drift through my head… "I'm grounded by what's natural," allowing full-on daydream of being in woods or in bed with a pretty girl… (enough said there) or "To myself I am kind," simply experiencing the peace of the morning and the relaxation in my body… All of that I seemed to be permitted to do without resistance.

Sometimes I wonder about this whole disruption of sleep thing. Could it be that I'm naturally hardwired to influence my environment at these times and that's why my body is refusing to shut down?

Even now, I feel relaxed. I don't feel tense. "Could it be that the guidelines for healthy amounts of sleep do not apply to all of us?"

Too, I wonder if doing the 16 hour fast thing every day isn't partly causing me to be up more. Maybe it's generating the extra energy? I only say this knowing that I've had a tough time sleeping for a week at a time in the past because I do feel different now… The anxiety about not sleeping like I think I ought to just isn't there.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026: 5:03 PM: I got my new beater bar ordered… Portable charger for iPhone… It would seem that Shibari is just hanging on with Amazon so switch to Trojan and LubeLife products instead… Copilot was a big help with the shopping today…

Tuesday, February 24, 2026: 7:20 PM: Just got done helping Marilyn with her work machine as best I could over the phone… Can't set up the new printer, it having been an emergency purchase for the work computer… Work computer owned by employer… Employer's IT guy has the credentials required to set up the new printer software. I devised a system to ensure Marilyn could still do her job tomorrow in the event the IT guy doesn't call right away.

During all this the Epson installer showed up on the home machine wanting to install new connection checker software… Took care of that after I got off the phone and was in and out of that computer in about three minutes flat.

Was on the phone with Marilyn for about an hour and fifteen minutes, if that, figuring this mess out.

Wednesday, February 25, 2026: 9:02 PM: I did get the geo fencing/regional isolation project with my website, Brian Schnabel's Head Space, completed like I wanted. I'm noticing things in the server record that lead me to suspect that I am being throttled with regard to how many IP addresses or IP address ranges I can actually block, and the industry in general is not being forthcoming about what's actually going on here.

However, I plan to observe… And once I'm done watching… I will take action going forward… Because I am not going to be misled in the name of a buck by anyone. Two can play. I'm damn good at what I do. Web host companies and third party companies like Cloudflare will just have to suck it up. They're not getting into my pocket any deeper than they are already.

Thursday, February 26, 2026: 6:54 AM: If I slept at all last night… It was only for a few seconds or minutes at a time here and there… Not sure. Spent time focusing on intentions to use my inner witch/clockwork/intuition to guide me in getting the cash flow and intimacy I want in my life. Having trouble labeling that capability which is none scientifically measurable and not respected by mainstream science… Oh well… Will figure out what to call it. Preternatural might be the best term for it… Not sure.

It did come to me during the hours of sleeplessness that the reason I can remotely influence some people where intimacy is concerned is because I've been close to them already before… Other folks are just susceptible… Perhaps due to manic depression or simplistic. All I know is what I do works to a small degree in guiding them in the direction I need them to go… Not ruling out a helping hand from spiritual realm… Guardian angel… High self. Just defies logic some of the stuff I've experienced. No mainstream science can help me here and the terms Copilot has been throwing out of late to describe me aren't cutting it either.

Also sensing that I need to start gearing some meditations towards offensive work instead of defensive work… And… For whatever reason… That makes sense to me. Affirmation script at this point can be freeform during meditation sessions. Perhaps tying things to a physical action like "I will next awaken from sleep" is still valid… But it doesn’t feel like I need to do that as much anymore based on impressions this morning. Even if I don't know how to verbalize or write out intention at 2:00 AM, the focus on desire, faith that it is properly expressed, and expectation that it will happen in short order is the key. "And this is so" can be used to close still as well.

Friday, February 27, 2026: 9:52 PM: I'm beat. It's been a long but productive day… Got pages generated in HTML for posting the week of November 16th to Brian Schnabel's Head Space. Michael and Marilyn wanted to take me out to lunch for my birthday even though it isn't until March 22nd. Mike is getting surgery on his arm on March 20th.

They gave me a cool-looking 1996 metal diecast scale model of a Firebird TA which feels pretty slick (me having worked on one at Hidden Auto years ago that kissed a deer)… And my Anker, Trojan, and Shibari stuff came from Amazon today long before I went out.

I woke at 3:00 AM and got out of bed around 4:00 AM. I ran an hour and a half long meditation this morning during which I had a vision tipping me off to a possible moderate weather event. I see we're supposed to get snow on Sunday but… We shall see… It could be sooner but could be a bit later… Sometime within the next four days.

Not sure why I keep dreaming of my old bedroom when it was painted a bright orange color called Pirate's Gold and had that orangey-colored carpet… But there's some significance there… Just not sure what it is yet.

Why were Trojan brand items ordered when I nixed the possibility of having children via surgery years ago? I did see recently that there's a possibility I might be asked to use some protection anyway. So, condoms are here… Assuming an intimate encounter really is going to take place.

Played around with Copilot… The AI analyzing my Audible book list… That leading to a conversation about how I identify when it comes to my more unique abilities that run outside the norm… We came up with Seer in ancient terminology… The modern term of course being witch. I like Seer better as what I'm capable of is a substitution for the physical eyesight I don't have.

Saturday, February 28, 2026: 6:58 PM: Well… My beater bar came from Amazon… Just a bar with brushes… Nothing else… Not what I was expecting… So, returning it and waiting for the new vacuum to arrive Monday. Parts for the current machine are discontinued and the option to rebuild to accommodate newer parts is not worth the cost of the machine brand new. Getting a Kenmore 81214 (200 Series).

Definitely getting either rain or snow in the near future… Vision confirms that. Kicked Dad's ass twice this morning in two separate visions… Can only assume this means he won't be a problem when I kill his Microsoft account subscription on March 1st that I've been paying for all these years. Life is good.

Feeling like calling my nephew today may be in order… Going to have to do something about isolating senses… People downstairs don't sound happy… Not my chaos.

I'm tired… Feel like it's going to be an early night. Skin has changed since I started intermittent fasting a few weeks ago… Feels healthier and more youthful.

I think orange is my color… Already know the eagle is my animal spirit… Dreams steering me to the conclusion about color.

Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”