Brian Schnabel's Head Space
Where Magick and Mind Digitally Interlace.

Week of April 5, 2026, Personal Journal Entries: Blind Life Explorations, Achievements and Discoveries

Sunday, April 5, 2026: 10:44 AM: I took a walk this morning, Covering 6 miles in an hour and thirty-one minutes. Last weekend I did the route in an hour and forty-six minutes.

I didn’t get around to doing my page generator last week, working on my GEO Fence for Brian Schnabel’s Head Space becoming a bit mor involved than what I anticipated. Then there were the watch and computer issues that came up. But all is resolved now.

Things with my Apple Watch SE 3 are working much better now that the iPhone and Watch are both using the same SSID to access my network. Windows 11? Well, the update didn’t exactly install correctly the first time around so reinstalling it again and changing the Fast Startup settings back to “On” certainly put the sluggish behavior of the PC to bed.

Tomorrow, I will be depositing checks, scheduling bill payments and looking over the latest bunch of crap PNC sent me in the mail. They now say I don’t make enough money for one of the credit card offers they made? They know what my income is so why waste my time with this garbage? “Such Incompetence!”

Sunday, April 5, 2026: 11:25 AM: Note to self: I need to call NJ FamilyCare: I got a notice from Medicare stating I owe my doctor $0.00. The strange thing is, they also now say I’m receiving QMB benefits again, which hasn’t been the case to my knowledge since 2023. So, in the spirit of making sure that the AI on the Federal end of the equation hasn’t taken to dropping acid, or NJ’s automatic enrollment hasn’t been screwing up, “A phone-call is in order.”

Sunday, April 5, 2026: 11:31 AM: I’ve been having some very interesting sex dreams of late. Other dreams have been sticking with the theme of self-justification. I’m not sure where the justification dreams are going but in each and every one of them, I’ve been telling people I don’t owe them an explanation for anything I’m doing. Why does it continue to come up? “I have no clue.”

I’m pretty sure I’m not going to get laid any time soon. So perhaps there’s another message in these visions that I’m missing? “Wee shall soon see.”

Sunday, April 5, 2026: 12:29 PM: On this Read and Research Tuesday, I’m going to use copilot to figure out which Mac Computer will best meet my needs from a blind perspective. Copilot doesn’t always get everything right, but it certainly can point me in a direction. I also need to research -how Uber handles trips involving tolls in addition to continuing to read Robert Green’s Art of Seduction.

Sunday, April 5, 2026: 12:41 PM: Over this past week I’ve begun recording my early meditation session, talking myself through them to ensure I stay focused, feeling the resonance of my voice throughout as much of my body as possible. I will do a review of these recordings on Tuesday, transcribing them via Word, then analyzing them for patterns. Over this past week my mornings have run thus: Do Stretching exercises while waiting for coffee to brew… Do meditation… Go for at least a three-mile walk.

Monday, April 6, 2026: 1:39 PM: The NJ FamilyCare QMB mystery is resolved. The QMB benefit is coming through NJ FamilyCare/Medicaid, so I don’t owe my doctor anything unless notified otherwise by NJ Medicaid. I was given a number to call, which I’m told is (609) 588-7101, if I have any further questions. I should probably follow up on this at some point this week to make sure I have all the information I need, especially when it comes to dealing with Premier Health Associates, who has already demonstrated in the past a certain level of incompetency when it comes to billing me with respect to QMB.

Monday, April 6, 2026: 1:54 PM: Tomorrow I need to research how I can print out health data from the Health app in my phone. I don’t see anything in the app itself that would allow me to do this but there might be something I’m missing.

Tuesday, April 7, 2026: 9:03 AM: This morning it came to me that I might want to stop using the binaural sound audio stuff during meditation as it may be contributing to the balance issues I sometimes have while walking outside. Adjusting breathing patterns clears them up but as I reached for a set of headphone to listen to music as a part of my meditations, something in the back of my brain woke and said, “Don’t do that.”

The balance thing only kicks in when I’m walking outside. It is not an indoor issue. Apparently, while some people unconsciously hold their breath while reading email, I tend to hold mine while focusing intensely on traffic. But this latest internal memo about Binaural beats type soundtracks… “Interesting idea worth some research.”

I did my 3 mile walk in 47 minutes and was actually clocked by my phone and watch covering 1 mile in 13 minutes and 51 second. My pace average was 1 mile every 15 minutes and 24 seconds, which works out to 3.9 miles per hour. “Awesome!”

Tuesday, April 7, 2026: 5:49 PM: Notes on today’s activities: I can export my Health app data via ZIP but need a converter to read it. I might generate my own server side script to do the job via web browser but since I don’t have a doctor who would be interested in seeing any of the data anyway, it will be an interesting rainy-day project should I decide to do it at all. Right now, “It’s not important.”

The Mac research went well, and I have a pretty good handle on the arguments for and against switching from Windows to Mac from a blind perspective. I will get down to brass tacks on hardware when it gets closer to the time to make a move.

I read more of the Art of Seduction, analyzing it for practicality using Copilot as I went. It’s been an interesting practice to engage in and I’m inclined to think I’ll be doing it with other books going forward. I’m up to Chapter 17 thus far.

The only thing I haven’t gotten to is looking at the recorded meditation sessions. Do I really need to? Well… Maybe not but… “We shall see.”

Most of the stuff I’ve set out to do this week has gotten done thus far. That’s a good thing. So long as I keep with the systems I’ve set up, “Progress will continue.”

Wednesday, April 8, 2026: 1:38 PM: Uber drivers cannot ask for cash payments for tolls or anything else unless I’ve set it up in my app to pay for trips in cash. This is according to the Uber’s Q&A section of their website. I didn’t look it up yesterday so did it just now.

I realized too that I had decided a while back that building a page generator for Brian Schnabel’s Head Space was counter productive and the amount of extra work to make it happen just wasn’t worth the effort. I seem to recall doing a journal entry to that effect months ago. “What am I thinking!”

I did update the required IP address for the GEO Fence script I’m successfully running. So far so good. “It’s actually working this time!”

If anyone from outside the Sussex County NJ area is able to access the site it’s only because they are part of an IP address range that is used for a legitimate bot, an ISP servicing the Sussex County area, or because I’ve decided to let them in. If I’ve missed anything I’m sure Sussex County NJ residents and businesses who want to see the site bad enough will let me know.

While running a meditation this morning, I felt like it might be time to start writing out affirmation statements again. I just do better when I work from a written list and feel I get more positive results than when I just do things freestyle.

This morning’s affirmation statement:

• I will next awaken from sleep, all that I have most deeply desired, believed was possible, and expected to pass having manifested, “And this is so.”

It feels right. It has a certain charge to it when I run it at Center. So, I’ll keep it around.

Wednesday, April 8, 2026: 2:17 PM: Note to self: the Windows Updater has been paused until May 6th in Marilyn’s machine. I’m also thinking of turning off the updater in my phone and watch, Apple also seeming to have some quality control issues of late as well. But I haven’t decided on that one yet.

Thursday, April 9, 2026: 9:32 PM: I've cracked the code on the sex dream symbolism. Unfortunately, I broke a cane and needed to call Ambutech to get there, messing myself up a little on the way home from Dominick's. Cracking my jaw on a metal railing, and leg on a rock I never knew existed on Main Street until this afternoon wasn't my idea of relaxing. But they do say everything happens for a reason, "Right?"

Anyhow... Sex dreams are a symbol for communication at a deeper than superficial level. I suspect, too, that they may even be a symbol for communicating with people who work with the blind or are blind themselves. But I'm not totally clear on that yet.

What I am clear on is the fact that the interaction I had with an Ambutech employee lined up perfectly with a sex dream I had this morning in principle. This also means that my rough walk home was a Universal Setup designed to show me something.

Hopefully next time I wonder about something at center the lesson is a little less painful. The broken cane sure did make the walk home interesting though.

I still think the person who parked their pickup truck so it was sticking about two thirds of the way across a public sidewalk behind the Cochrane Plazza here in Newton NJ is a complete asshole. But at least now I know what the alternat symbol for sex dreams are and will make it a point to pay attention more closely to the details in principle of each one. "I'll try not to shove my replacement cane up said pickup truck owner’s ass when it arrives should ever we meet."

Friday, April 10, 2026: 9:41 AM: I feel a little stiff today. But I did get my Move and Exercise rings closed this morning. I didn’t break any record time frames but the walk was nice, measured at a moderate level of effort by all things Apple.

As I walked, I ran the following affirmation:

• I will next awaken from sleep, well protected from the greed, incompetence and prejudice of those in my digital and physical environment, “And this is so.”

It was interesting as to how this came about because I no sooner had the idea of running an incantation in my head as I walked when the above statement sprang into being. So, I ran with it.

It also came clear to me as I got closer to returning home that I need to develop a list of seven evergreen statements. These statements should be similar to the structure of the above and reflect the fact in some way that I am being granted things “like protection” by a third party. The things I commonly dream about will serve as an excellent guide for accomplishing this.

Friday, April 10, 2026: 7:20 PM: Instead of back posting today, I worked with Copilot for a while to get some ideas for generating 7 evergreen statements which are as follows:

• I will next awaken from sleep, well protected from the greed, incompetence, and prejudice of those in my digital and physical environments, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, having always been granted the cutting-edge technology that keeps me independent, healthy and safe, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, having always been sent women who act on their newly resurrected sexual hunger for me, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, having always been restored to perfect physical well-being, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, my ships always having come in at exactly the right time, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, always having been the Seer, guided through my connection with the divine, “And this is so.”
• I will next awaken from sleep, always having been fully empowered, enabling me to contribute meaningfully to the world, “And this is so.”

In addition to working with Copilot, the above incantation/affirmation list was finally solidly born out of a lengthy meditation, which I recorded. Then I used Copilot to help me tighten things up a bit where wording was concerned. Copilot was worthless on the first go round but redeemed itself on the second once my meditation session was done.

I’ll probably do the back posting tomorrow. Also, my recertification packet came from Housing, and I’ll be working on that with Ellen at 11:00 AM on Monday. It’s amazing to me how they always manage to get me the packet and then demand I have it back to them in three business days.

Saturday, April 11, 2026: 8:35 AM: I will next awaken from sleep… Always having been granted… Cutting edge technology… That keeps me independent… Healthy and safe… “And this is so.”

The above was quietly chanted to myself all the way out to 366 Ridge Road, Newton, NJ and back. I find it amusing that I averaged 15 minutes and 8 seconds per mile this morning and my Apple SE 3 watch indicates that the effort put into the outdoor walk was only moderate.

Today I will do the back posting that should have been done yesterday as that’s the kind of thing Screw off Saturday’s are for. I’ve also decided that I don’t need to do a review of the guided meditations I did last week, as it’s just counter productive to the scheme of things around here as a whole.

For whatever reason, I do feel a sense of urgency in getting this entire journal online, sanitizing in places where it’s prudent to do so. So, yeah, “I need to step it up a bit.”

Another vision this morning spoke to the high standard I tend to hold myself to, even in social interactions. Some people actually get it that you’re not always going to remember their name, especially when you haven’t spoken to them in a while. The general theme of some visions seems to simply be that I’m expecting too much of myself and dealing with too many problems that don’t even belong to me.

In my relationships, intimate and otherwise, the messaging is pretty clear. When people become too draining or aren’t even meeting me half way at any level of being, I need to disconnect at the very least and become the observer in very much the way I do with my own thoughts during meditation. “I need to stay in my own zone.”

Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”