Sunday, January 19, 2025: 8:30 PM: Without meaning to, in 2017, I unexpectedly began a journey of self-discovery and transformation that has profoundly impacted my life. Up until that point, I knew that through meditation, self-hypnosis, and a shift in mindset, life could be more manageable. However, since then I've learned firsthand that changing myself can influence the world around me.

One of the most significant changes I’ve made since 2017 is incorporating the type of meditation that lowers brain frequency into my daily routine without fail. It all started when I fully embraced using a simple centering exercise developed by Jose Silva in June of that year.

I noticed that on days when I meditated using the Silva Centering Exercise before leaving my apartment, drivers were more considerate at crosswalks. This shift from chaos to calmness has made my daily walks safer and more pleasant ever since. The transition has been noticed by Newton NJ Crossing Guards and others as well. I’ve been told multiple times over the years that, “Traffic now stops for me way more often than the Crossing Guards.”

As a part of my journey, I’ve always been seeking out more positive relationships. But, after the experience I had had with the Silva Centering Exercise and traffic, I realized that by focusing on what I radiated, I could potentially attract and nurture healthier social connections. I knew that this shift within myself could include building a supportive social circle and fostering more enjoyable relationships with women. But how do I do this?

Hey! I’m a Full-Blooded American Male and I like girls. “Sue me!”

Anyhow… Starting in mid-January of 2025, I was given a nudge from the great beyond to take my meditation practice a step further by incorporating emotions into my altered meditative state. But this was not to be in the way I thought it should be done starting in the fall of 2023, at which time I began suspecting that embracing and dealing with emotions would be key to more effective meditations and ultimately a total transformation of my environment through self-awareness.

The technique I was handed in mid-January of 2025 has the potential to radiate in a way that would have a more effective influence on my environment, aligning my internal state with my external goals. Another way of stating this would be to say, “I’m working to decrease the gap between my true self and projected public image of self in order to achieve a life worth living.”

As someone on Social Security Disability Income and self-employed, I've faced significant challenges in convincing potential clients/employers of my capabilities. While it has always been true that my goal has been to change perceptions surrounding blindness by demonstrating my skills and determination, how does one do that if the audience they seek to address refuses to give them the time of day?

After my experience with the Sussex County Mental Health Board Director and her colleagues in the profession, I'm also passionate about addressing corruption in that field as well. It’s pretty clear to me too that since 2020, certain housing practices in Sussex County and New Jersey need to change big time. My landlord, Goldberg Realty, has always needed watching. That’s just a given. Michael Goldberg is a landlord and like most of his kind clearly forgets that his tenants bleed, too. But landlords like Michael wouldn’t get away with the crap they do if Janel Winter made sure the Housing Division of The Department of Community Affairs was actually doing write by the citizens of The State of New Jersey.

I’ve believed for a long time now that by changing myself, I can influence my environment and advocate for necessary reforms. But, until now, the question has always been, “How do I do it?”

Obviously, implementation of this most recent information is in its infancy. But I'm committed to continuing this path of self-improvement until I either sink or swim with it. My sense is though that It will work once I get the hang of its implementation in a way that is unique to me. I will get help with this along the way though, so I’m not concerned about it being a complete waste of time, “As I have finally awakened inside in a way that I would never have believed possible until now.”

By following this path, I am certain I will have a tremendous community impact, too, doing it all from behind the scenes, which suits me just fine. By focusing on this chosen formula for personal change, I hope to contribute to a better, more just world on a much larger scale than I’ve ever done before. “God is good!”

Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”