This morning, I woke up around 3:37 AM, feeling totally relaxed and content to simply lie in bed for a while. As I lay there, I focused on my breathing exercises, the sound of WNNJ playing through my Echo Dot offering distraction from other noises in and around the building.
During this meditative state, an image of Mom unexpectedly entered my thoughts—vivid and clear, leaving me with the sense that she was present with me. Thinking she might have something to communicate, I decided to give her my complete attention, mentally asking what she wanted to share.
When I started focusing on Mom, I anticipated having to imagine her response to my question to get things started. But instead, the experience seemed to take on a life of its own. “I was not in control of what happened next.”
I slipped into a semi-vision where she encouraged me to keep working on my website, Brian Schnabel’s Head Space. Her enthusiasm was palpable; she conveyed that publishing my journal online was an excellent idea and seemed genuinely supportive of my efforts.
At some point, I briefly lost consciousness, just a few seconds of even my conversation with Mom. It was like when you are talking with someone and start to doze off and catch yourself so you don’t fall asleep on the other party.
But I emerged from the vision with a sense of certainty mixed with surprise. This is because I found myself physically nodding my head on my pillow andactually saying aloud, “Yes, I’ll do that.”
Even though I missed a fragment of the conversation, I knew upon waking that our discussion remained focused on my site, and I’d committed to continue working on Brian Schnabel’s Head Space.
Engaging with Mom in this way left me feeling peaceful and energized. The clarity and encouragement I received during meditation was thrilling and motivating. I am going to try like hell to carry this sense of purpose into the day ahead. With all the happy people who regularly call me, that shouldn’t be too hard, “Right?”
