Brian Schnabel's Head Space
Where Magick and Mind Digitally Interlace.
Week of May 24, 2026, Personal Journal Entries
Sunday, May 24, 2026: 7:15 PM: After years of research into meditation, reality creation, and dreams, I get it now. I’m wired in a way that lets me perceive and do things most people can only imagine, let alone pursue. It doesn’t make me special, but it certainly does make for a more level playing field. I don’t need to control this ability; simply relaxing and letting it work is enough. Before projects, travel, or other important activities, all I really need is a centering exercise to free my inner witch to assist me. It’s a realization that truly is emotionally freeing.
Wednesday, May 27, 2026: 9:09 PM: I’ve pulled back from communications with certain family members a bit since Saturday, a vision tipping me off to the fact that some folks are feeling a bit frustrated with life right now and likely to lash out. So, I’ve heeded the warning I received on Saturday. My sense now though is that it’s safe to pick up the phone again, starting tomorrow.
Wednesday, May 27, 2026: 9:13 PM: I’ve been using the Breathe function in the mindfulness app in my watch before heading out and now traffic not only stops but stops short. It’s kind of funny to watch someone jam on the breaks at the last second like I’ve walked out in front of their car or something. But at least they are stopping for me at intersections and actually being patient about it. People have been stopping for me all along. But the wait times were getting longer and longer with each increase of the gas prices. Now, the stops are dramatic but back to the way things were before gas prices went sky high.
Wednesday, May 27, 2026: 9:26 PM: I’m feeling ok, despite the fact that I’m not sleeping much at night. I’ve been supplementing sleep a bit during the day but keeping it to a dull roar, calculating how much I need based on how much I actually got, until the number hits at least 6 hours in total. Some experts would probably say I shouldn’t read in bed because it sends the wrong message to my subconscious as to what a bed is actually for. Other material suggests that it is imperative that I get out of bed at 5:00 AM every day when the alarm goes off, even if it means I get out of bed to read, journal, etc. But getting back to bed before the alarm goes off doesn’t seem to work for me too well. So, I listen to audio books and run meditations until I get tired and fall back asleep or until the alarm goes off.
Wednesday, May 27, 2026: 9:38 PM: Identifying How I feel at any given point during the day is probably always going to be a challenge for me. I like to think I’m getting better at it, but I still confuse emotions with moods. They both seem to be the same thing to me. Maybe over time, I’ll be able to label my moods and emotions effortlessly. But now, it’s taken me 5 minutes to conclude that I feel drained and slightly irritable. Maybe someday down the line it will only take me 5 seconds?
Friday, May 29, 2026: 7:28 AM: Now I’m just aggravated. I only got 2 hours of sleep last night. I think I know what I’m doing wrong. It has everything to do with supplementing sleep during the day. Also, I think there’s noise coming from next door that is causing me to wake between 12 and 3 AM. I have enough recording devices around here so confirming that shall not be a problem.
Friday, May 29, 2026: 7:32 AM: I got the recertification forms for NJ FamilyCare in the mail yesterday afternoon. I need to look at them to see when they are to be completed and returned. I wonder if the illegals in NJ get more time to fill these forms out. I only wonder this because, based on the Democratic party rhetoric I hear, I sometimes can’t help but feel that my own state government would rather risk being charged and executed for treason by inadvertently providing sanctuary to active terrorists illegally in this country, rather than make sure the disabled population of legal American citizens have what they need to survive.
Friday, May 29, 2026: 7:56 AM: I really do need to get my ass in gear with my website. I keep thinking I’m going to work on it more but then get sidetracked with other stuff. There’s that and the fact my focus is total crap these days. This low cycle seems to be lasting longer than usual. It’s frustrating but I’ve got an idea that just might work to straighten this mess out. This idea has everything to do with 5-minute meditations at the top of every hour to take the edge off at the very least.
Saturday, May 30, 2026: 8:34 PM: I need to get my forms for NJ FamilyCare taken care of by June 20th. That won’t be a problem as I can do them online like I did last year. Unlike last year, I’m certain that I’ll be able to avoid triggering a second batch of forms to be generated, which cannot be done online. Now that I know what should have been included despite what the documentation indicated the first time around last year, this shall be a breeze. Copilot should be a big help this year with this stuff, too.
Posting that's a little off the trolley at times... Brian is a single Newtonian Gardens Apartments resident, Self-Publishing Author, cPanel WordPress Web Host and Windows 11 powered computer tech. He’s a musician, sailor, hiker, cycler and some women would say, “Magical, too!”