As I worked on falling asleep last night it came to me that reversing a defensive incantation could possibly bring me more of what I want with less headache. So, something like, “I’m well protected from the greed, incompetence, and prejudice of XYZ,” could be converted to something like, “I am well exposed to the generosity, competence, and open-mindedness of XYZ,” to help me bring about the desired shift in others I want to experience.
So, naturally, I finally fell asleep working on a variation of this in my head with the intention of enhancing my sex life. And… “What do you know!” I woke from a vision involving my right-hand playing Phone Book with a young dirty blond twenty-something who was radiating that golden amber glow I do so like to see in my visions. She was happily pretending to be the yellow pages while I let my fingers do the walking.
She winced a little when the fingernail of my middle digit clipped her upon entry but she relaxed right away as soon as I changed the position of my hand so the nail wouldn’t cause any more discomfort. She was warm. She was wet. “She was tight!”
But, at that point, I began to wake up. However, just like yesterday morning, she seemed to have made the trip with me. Not so much physically as spiritually. Unlike yesterday though, the entity that came through to real time with me felt one hell of a lot more friendly than that other thing.
Interpretation: It was 4:01 AM when I woke and I felt at peace. I was a little disappointed the vision ended when it did but overall, I felt good. I did remember to trim that nail on my middle finger, too.
Something has been changing over the past few days. I can feel that in the very air upon waking in the early morning. I don’t feel threatened by it. But there is a power there I feel connected to somehow.
The link between the demon dream and this latest one is the way I transitioned out. In both I could feel the energy of another waking with me.
Is that which dwells within me finally fully awakening? Certain parties over the years seemed to feel that this would eventually be the case. What can I do with it though? Is it simply to be used for myself? Or can it help everyone, beyond the random events which have taken place? “This blind guy has kept more than one person from getting seriously injured or killed in the last decade alone.”
I’m not normal. That I know. At times, I’ve felt like I’ve been losing my mind, the past few years having been the worst; life having had somewhat of a nightmarish quality to it.
Somehow, the emotional upset and this ability within me seem to be linked. “What can I do with this?” “How do I fully control it!”
The parties that have approached me, claiming I would experience this awakening, have never said exactly what the great things I would be able to do truly are. Maybe it was all bullshit? Or maybe they’ve given up on me? I don’t know.
I’m not sure I really care at this point either. So, I continue on.
As I write this, the thought that transitioning from dream state to fully awake with the sense that the entities I’m encountering in my dreams are coming through with me in at least part, may perhaps be a signal that my dreams are key to doing any real Reality Creation and manifestation. In other words, what I “choose” to dream can be made real. “Perhaps I need to explore that?”