Today, I am setting out to manage my negative racing thoughts with the manifesting power of intention. My end goal here is to navigate ongoing family tensions in a manner that puts an end to any existing toxic behavior exhibited by one individual in a manner that brings positive change to everyone. In order to do this, I need to be present, observe my reactions, and use the tools I have developed to maintain clarity and peace of mind.
Who is this individual? “Dear Old Dad!”
Early this morning, at 2:13 AM, an incantation came to me. It was not something I sought out, but rather it arrived quietly and offered a sense of grounding. The words are simple, yet they serve to aid me in directing my negative emotions this situation triggers in a manner that will put an end to the matter as it stands now. This incantation is now a tool I will use to redirect my thoughts whenever thoughts of the situation regarding my father, brother, and niece disrupt my thoughts.
The source of tension today centers on my father’s unwavering insistence on my brother’s innocence as a child rapist, predicated on the absence of a formal court trial due to his getting drunk and dying in a car accident. Dad’s perspective is deeply rooted in a belief system that equates legal process with truth, a hatred for his daughter in law, which often complicates our conversations because he can’t seem to shut up about it. Write or wrong, “Daddio has to win!”
I find this stance disgusting and intolerable as he has essentially called his granddaughter a liar, others who believe her to be the enemy and South Dakota Law Enforcement incompetent. So, I will use the incantation as a means to remain calm and focused, channeling the fury I feel inside when this topic comes up along with thoughts of Dad in general, rather than allowing my frustration to dictate my mood for the day.
The incantation is as follows:
- Through wind, rain and fire brought by a storm from the sea, the parent who defends his dead pedophile son no longer a threat to anybody.
