I feel really frustrated with everything. I got stuff done but it doesn’t really feel like I’ve achieved anything. Ellen’s pissed off at the world and most people are just being stupid. I couldn’t wait to hang up from this evening’s Bible study. It’s not John so much as the dismissive behavior of everyone else on the call. And why is it I’m the one they have trouble hearing all the time? When I check the recording, “I hear me just fine!”
Betty asks me a question and then doesn’t let me finish my response? Who does she think she is? If you don’t know something, “Don’t you shut up long enough to listen?”
Thankfully, in most situations, I have the power to change this stuff. All I need to do is change my response, which in most cases is easy to do. “I just don’t call certain numbers or take certain calls!”
A little psychic work at Center can help here, too. Is this another use for the “Help Me” command? I don’t know. Logic tells me “Be Gone” would work better when visualizing these situations. But I guess time will tell me soon enough.
I think what it boils down to is this. When drifting at center, the most important thing I can do is use the command that feels the most appropriate for the focus of my meditation. If it is the wrong one, “I’ll be shown the right one.”
Recent dreams about Christine, Donna, and an unfamiliar neighbor suggest something is changing. Possibly a new friends-with-benefits situation if I’m open to it? “Help Me!”