I ran into Ricky today, but he was clearly too busy to talk. I’m pretty sure he didn’t see me, as he was swinging a pick when I went by.
Over the past week, I’ve felt sluggish and unmotivated. Interacting with others has seemed pointless, though I know that’s not really true, it’s just how I feel right now.
It might be time to start taking St. John’s Wort again, along with the other supplements I got from Nature’s Sunshine. I had decided my body needed a break from the supplements for at least a week, but I’ll resume everything on Monday and see if my energy level picks back up.
I also find myself feeling like there isn’t enough time for anything, which makes it harder to start any project. At those times I then begin wondering why I should bother devoting time to anything.
Despite this, I’m getting things done and functioning. I’m just tired of dealing with everything.
Can this be resolved? Yes, it can.
Sleep has been a hassle lately, and my neighbor isn’t helping. She tends to stomp around her apartment at 2:00 AM, which disrupts my rest. Sometimes I wonder if she’s trying to get attention, but I know the solution isn’t to confront her aggressively. I just need to be patient and wait for the next positive cycle of my body chemistry.
Other people have been friendly when I’ve gone out to Hayek’s, so it’s not all bad. I’m just dealing with my usual cycle of depression.
To help myself, I’m going to start sleeping with my clothes on and forget about getting between the sheets. I suspect the mattress might be causing some issues, so there are things I can do (like replacing the mattress or box spring) that might help me feel better.
I’ve also noticed that assuming the position for meditation and focusing on it helps me fall asleep faster. Or… Maybe I should just plan on meditating instead of stressing about sleep and let nature handle the rest?