In this MP3 Podcast, Brian shares about his anxiety and depression; talking about using mindfulness and meditation plus dreams to inspire his advocacy and to assert his voice. He also vows in this podcast to not let anyone, or anything, silence him.
I’ve been feeling super anxious lately whenever I try to write or record something to stand up for myself. It doesn’t matter if it’s a post on this site, an email, or a letter, I get all the anxiety symptoms and it sucks!
I don’t really get why this is happening to me. Some days I think it’s just depression and anxiety messing with me. But… Come on… I used to be confident and assertive in my advocacy.
But now? I feel like I’m always doubting myself and worrying about how people will react.
Maybe it’s because of the hate I’ve gotten in the past, and the fact that most people wish I would just go away. Maybe it’s because of the pressure in our society to be nice and respectful even when I’m being treated badly.
Whatever the reason, I can’t stand feeling this way. I want to be able to say what I think and feel, without being scared or nervous.
How can I do that? Well… Here’s the deal.
I already know I have a voice and a message that matter. So, it’s obvious to me that letting fear or doubt shut me up would be wrong.
So, I’m going to keep doing what I’ve always done with a little twist. “Mindfulness to the rescue!”
I’m going to make meditation a big part of the process and let my dreams tell me how things will go.
By doing this, anxiety and depression won’t stop me from being the awesome advocate that I am. No matter what, “I won’t be silenced!”